Friday, August 20, 2010

Amelia's First Day of Kindergarten

Amelia started Kindergarten this week! This was her "first day of school picture" outside our house.
Here is the lunchbox she picked out to match her backpack.
Her first lunch...I was teary eyed as I was making it.
Amelia was so excited about school starting. Here she is in her classroom on the first day.
So how am I really feeling about this Kindergarten stuff? Well, honestly it has been hard for me. I feel torn in many ways because we had really planned on homeschooling up until recently when I decided I wanted to finish my teaching degree. I have always loved the idea of homeschooling and think it is an awesome way to educate children for those who are called to it. Homeschooling offers a family-centered lifestyle and we love that. But, at this point in our lives I must work. My business brings in a good income, but not a lot of free time during the day. I am not able to take the girls to any extra activities for homeschoolers and I don't know if spending their days in house full of preschoolers is the most productive environment. Right now, I do not know what I want or what is best...but I give that to the Lord and will wait for his direction for the future regarding my career and schooling for the girls. But, for now, I think this is a good place. It is a smaller magnet school and she only has 15 kids in her class. I am trying to let go, but I want to know what she is doing all day. I want to be there. I want to see the connections she is making in her learning. I count the hours until she gets home. I am not sure if these are feelings every mom has when they send their first born off to school or if these are feelings resulting from wavering from our original plan to homeschool. I hate not knowing what is best or if the decisions I am making are the right ones.
 So how is that for a first day of school post???